Saturday, November 1, 2008

Are You Seeking ?


Our random question from Edie’s blog, Rich Gifts is: When did you seek God with all of your heart and what did finding Him look like? Here is the verse that not only tells us how to seek Him but what happens when you do.

You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. (Jeremiah 29:13)

I,along with my sister was adopted by a wonderful couple, our mom was a Christian but dad was not a believer. So, as a result I became exposed to, two different worlds.

I didn’t wholeheartedly start looking for God until 1999 when my second marriage was about to end. Although I did go to church, read my bible and prayed, I was known as one of those gals who talked the talk but didn’t walk the walk. Our marriage was a mess and if a miracle didn’t take place another child’s life was about to be destroy through divorce.

My husband and I had finally come to the edge of the cliff in our marriage and there were only two choices. The first choice was we could turn around together and make this marriage work. The second choice was we could jump off the cliff (together) and have our lives break into a million pieces. We chose to turn around to give it one more try and on November 22, 1999 we met with a pastor who didn’t beat around the bush but spoke truth into our hearts.

After our meeting, I began to seek God to show me His plan for our marriage. As I prayed, I would ask Him to do amazing things in my husband life like…change him. Several weeks had gone by and things were going pretty smooth.

About a month had passed when our promise to God to make this marriage work was tested. I will spare you the unpleasant details but what took place was very familiar. At the end of our argument, he stormed off as I stood in the kitchen crying. Over and over I kept telling God, I was tried. I didn’t want our marriage to go backwards and He needed to do something to change my husband. It was then I heard God say “I am going through you to get to him.” I couldn’t believe what I had just heard, so I said “God,is that you?” and He quickly repeated.

I knew what God was getting at…I was the one He wanted to change.

My husband began to see the changes in me and God kept His promise, within a few months I could see my husband starting to change,too. We have been married for 21 years and our daughter knows her parents are together until death do us part.

Ever since that day, I have continued to seek God and He continues to show me His faithfulness.

8 comments:

Kelly said...

Tammy - that was excellent! I am so glad God changed you both and your marriage was redeemed. Amen!

Sonya Lee Thompson said...

I am so glad that you two chose to look to God for healing and life. He is a faithful God. Great story!

Love,
Sonya

Edie said...

Tammy what an awesome testimony! I'm so glad you both chose to try again and that you sought the Lord and were obedient to Him.

“God is that you?” Had to chuckle when I read that. You know He must have smiled too. :)

Jennifer said...

What a beautiful testimony to God's faithfulness! Thank you for sharing your heart today and your openness in your comment on my site.

God is a merciful, forgiving, loving and faithful God that I know that I couldn't live without. When you get time...read some of my story...starting at the bottom and work up. I too had a failed marriage, re-married, had turbulent times, blended families and so much more. But, through it all, as long as I leaned on Him...He was faithful and we are still together today after 17 1/2 years and still in love.

I have really been intrigued by your writings and want to follow it regularly...I'm adding you to my blogroll to keep up with your new entries.

Thanks for stopping by...come again:)

Laura said...

Tammy,
Isn't He amazing? I have a similar story with my hubs...wanted to give up, but He kept me hanging in there. I'm so glad. We are more in love than ever. All because of God and His amazing love!
Loved reading your story!

Alene said...

What a beautiful story! I'm crying. Sounds like my marriage. God does great things through his women when they listen to His still small voice. Thank you for sticking it out and seeking HIM!!!

Jennifer said...

Stop by my blog today, Tammy...I have an award waiting for you!

Have a blessed day!

Carol said...

Tammy
You became the 1 Peter 3 wife. That's what my husband calls me. He said he'd watch my faith, and God used me to show him what faith, trust and hope was.

What a wonderful testimony you both are. I always feel such joy when I meet people who've been married 20, 30 years. It's sadly rare.

Love,
Carol