Monday, June 15, 2009

God 's Done It, Again!

God has opened another door. In our newspaper, we have a lady who writes about people in our community called "Our Neighbors". I sent out a email to her last week to see if she would be interested in writing my story and about our abortion recovery program. Well, yesterday I received a response saying "I would be honored to write about your experience and the group program."

I couldn't believe it!

So, Monday at 1:00pm she will be interviewing me at my home. My prayer has always been that my story (God's Story) would let others know that they are not alone and there is help. That holding on to a secret can keep you in a stand still. I often think about the woman and her obedience to God's calling, offering an abortion recovery bible study at my church over 10 years ago. She bravely shared her story about her three abortions with no condemnation. I remember thinking...I want that freedom, that came from her voice.

Now,I have that same freedom. Come Monday, I will be using my voice to proclaim of God's goodness!


Saturday, June 13, 2009

She Showed Me Happiness

I stood there for a moment, in the doorway of the hospital room where my aileenmother laid staring at the ceiling. The medal brace that was holding her neck in place, looked so confining. I had never seen her so still. I remember looking at dad as if to say How is she going to possibly get through this? How are you going to get through this?” Holding back the tears, I walked over to her bedside, and gently touched her hand. “Mom, how are you doing?” I asked. “Oh, honey, I’m alright” she said.

Soon after my arrival, the doctor stopped by with the news. He explained that the first two vertebra's in her neck had been broken and that it was a miracle she was walking. He proceeded to instructed us on how to care for her and made it a point to let us know that the road to recovery would be a long one. With a confidence in his voice he made this statement “She’ll be wearing this neck brace for year or so.” Knowing mom, I’m sure she was thinking…but I know the Great Physician and in His time I will be healed.

( She was completely heal after 8 months and no brace was needed!)

Mom had been home about a month after the accident when I noticed that she seemed to be depressed, which had never been a part of her life. There was a sadness in her eyes, sadness I’d never seen, so I asked her what’s wrong. “You seem so unhappy, it’s not like you, mom”. That’s when she looked at me with tears in her eyes and with a broken voice replied “I can’t read my bible because of this brace.” I immediately jumped up and went looking for her bible. There it laid, right next to her rocking chair were she had left it before the accident. Returning to the table, I sat down and began reading God’s Word to her. In a instant, her smile had returned. I could see the tears being replaced with joy and the darkness had disappeared .

It didn’t take long for us to figure a way to place the bible in front of her, so that she could spend time with her Father. Reading His Word was a daily lifeline for her. Every morning she would sit in her chair with her bible and devotions in her lap to learn more about our wonderful Creator. Then she would bow her head and begin her conversation with Abba Father.

I’m not sure why God blessed me with this wonderful mother, but I will be forever grateful. I learned on that day what my mother already knew; happiness doesn’t come by the way you feel but by Who you know.

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

The Call Came

The call finally came. The one I had been waiting for to tell me if my letter would be publish in our local paper. About a month and half ago there on the front page of our newspaper were these words ”Obama: Open minds needed on abortion debate”.

After reading the article, God started to nudge me to share apiece of my story (God’s Story) with the readers in our community. So, this letter to the editor will appear in a few days in our local paper.

Open minds needed

Obama says open minds are needed in the abortion debate. So, with an open-mind, would you be willing to read my story?

Abortion not only claims the lives of pre-born babies, it devastates the lives of women who made this choice. I know because 20 years ago, I had an abortion. I walked into that clinic with an open mind, believing what they told me: This was my right as a woman. It would be be a simple procedure and I could go on with my life. I only half-believed that it was just a "blob of tissue."

Instead, my abortion haunted me for years. Shame, guilt, anger and depression had devastating affects on my family and me. I've since gone through an abortion recovery program and experienced the healing and forgiveness of Jesus. I'm no longer ashamed, but I will always regret my choice.

I pray that President Obama's girls will never face this choice.

Tammy Rude

abortion recovery coordinator

Life Choices Center