Monday, April 26, 2010

Changing One Heart for Many...wk15

If you’re visiting for the first time and you don’t know my story (God’s Story), you may want to check it on the left-hand side bar under “My Secret Sin.” I was one of those human beings who needed a heart change. If you have had an abortion, I want you to know you will find no condemnation here, but you will find Truth wrapped in grace and mercy. God has brought you here because He doesn’t want you to hurt and feel ashamed anymore, but what He does want from you is to trust Him with your pain. Will you do that? I hope so. If you need to talk or need prayer, click on ‘profile’ for email.

This week I’m continuing with the thoughts of one grandmother who lost her grandchild to an abortion.

She told me that she enjoyed the company of her son’s girlfriend and from time to time, she would share with this young woman about her abortion. She let her know how it had affected her and those closes to her. I remember looking into her eyes, and seeing the pain of hopelessness as grandmother’s voice became shaky speaking these words “I wish that I could have had just a few minutes with her. I know all she sees right now is a situation and that this is the best solution.”   “You see, I thought the same thing. My life was going places and nothing was going to stop me.”  
I could see the tears gently falling down her cheeks has she continued, “But you know, my life stopped the minute I placed my feet on the floor after my abortion.” “I knew what I had done and I couldn’t undo it.” Then in a whisper, she said, “I thought I’d never be holding on to this secret, again.”

The words that you are about read came from her journal, with her permission.

It’s over. Yesterday your life ended. I tried to convince your daddy that there was a better way. I pray that your death will not be in vain, but will one day bring you daddy and mommy to the Cross. Oh, the Cross… is a beautiful place to find rest and forgiveness.

Your mom and dad couldn’t see beyond the circumstance. I think they believed it was better to not hold you, then to have held you only to place you in someone else arms.

I know the fear they were feeling and the voice that convinced me that there was no other way, so many years ago. I have mourned for many years for the child I’ll never hold because of my abortion. There are times I wonder about all the plans God had for my child and now, I will wonder about you…little one.

Psalm 139:13
    You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body
      and knit me together in my mother’s womb.

Abba Father,
You are Holy. Nothing is hidden from You, for You are the Creator of all things. We pray that our eyes would be open fully to the evil that is surrounding us. Give us the voice to speak out for the children. Give us the heart to embrace those who are now hurting, because they have seen the life that was lost.

I ask God that our government would be shaken and brought to their knees and seek You to do Your will and not theirs. In Jesus Mighty Name…Amen!



Cheryl Barker said...

Tammy, I join you in praying that the eyes of those in positions of government authority will be opened to the evil of abortion. May they choose life -- and the lives You have created -- instead!

Andrea said...

Continuing to storm the heavens with you.
Hugs, andrea

Jennifer said...

Continuing to pray with all of you. Oh the lies we have all believed. We are never the same from the moment we walk into that clinic. We lose a part of ourselves in there, we don't realize it at the time, but after the brief relief the realization of what we have done sinks in. We are never the same.

Thank you for continuing this prayer team.

Edie said...

My heart really goes out to this grandma. I pray that God will wrap her in His loving arms and bring comfort to her heart.

Would love to get a phone call from you this week if you have a chance. Love you my friend.

Sonja said...

I'm so thankful for your heart on this whole subject Tammy. I will continue to be praying right alongside of you, for all that is involved with these precious unborn babies. If we don't speak out, we bear some of the responsibility. Thank you for your tiresless work.


Barbara said...

Your heart is so evident in every post you make and although this is a "foreign" subject to me....God has given you a gift to minister to those who have walked in those shoes....I praise Him for what He has placed within you to minister to others.

April said...

A day late (sorry I was out of town) but still praying... Praying for the Light to pierce the darkness, the lies & deception & hearts to be transformed, healed & made whole in Him...

quietspirit said...

My heart goes out to this grandmother. She knows what this young girl will face. She's been through it.
The words "SEE BEYOND THE CIRCUMSTANCE" makes it clear to me that people who find themselves in an unwanted pregnancy aren't looking at the future. Maybe, they don't know how to.
Still praying for a change.

Alicia, The Snowflake said...

Oh how sad! May God wrap His arms around this grandmother and remind her of His love and compassion and mercy. Thank you for sharing her story with us. And thank you for speaking out for those who cannot speak out for themselves. May God bless you and your ministry.


What an open and honest look at a tragic act to try and undo something. You are blessed to be used of God to take your tragedy and use it to minister to others. This grandmother will have the same opportunity to minister to those hurt by abortion and help them through it. I am truly humbled and inspired by your blog.

Melinda said...

Praying. And praying some more.

LisaShaw said...

Tammy, my arms of prayer are around that dear lady and you already know I'm praying for all the unborn babies and the wombs that carry them. Praying for the family unit and for hearts to be changed so that lives will be saved.

I love you.