Monday, April 5, 2010

Changing One Heart for Many

If you’re visiting for the first time and you don’t know my story (God’s Story), you may want to check it on the left-hand side bar under “My Secret Sin.” I was one of those human beings who needed a heart change. If you have had an abortion, I want you to know you will find no condemnation here, but you will find Truth wrapped in grace and mercy. God has brought you here because He doesn’t want you to hurt and feel ashamed anymore, but what He does want from you is to trust Him with your pain. Will you do that? I hope so. If you need to talk or need prayer, click on ‘profile’ for email.

 Shame and guilt covered me. Anger took residence in my heart. Bitterness was now flowing through my veins. Little by little, that same bitterness was now trying to find its way into my daughter’s heart. I wanted to love her, yet these words came to me often… “You fool, why would you have another child when you didn’t want the one you killed?”

For ten years after my abortion, I tried to go on with my life. I still remember the rehearsed words the nurse spoke to me that day “You’re doing great. It’s almost over. In a little while you’ll be able to get on with you life.”

I had an abortion to do just that, to ‘get on with my life’. Yet I couldn’t. The whirlwind of emotions that was consuming me was also affecting my relationship with my daughter. Then one day God spoke and I listened. He showed me that my ‘secret’ wasn’t hidden from Him and it was time to deal with it! Within a few days, I heard a woman testify of the love and forgiveness that she received from our Lord, when she confessed her abortion(s). She was offering an abortion recovery Bible study to anyone who was hiding this secret and who was willing to trust God. I knew it was time.

These last few weeks have been amazing, but when God is the focus, it always is. I had the privilege of sharing my story (God’s Story) with the Endless Mountains Pregnancy Care Center in Towanda, Pa. and United with Christ Church in Johnson City, NY. In addition, on April 28, I will be speaking at a pro-life fundraiser in Binghamton, NY and on May 1 will be doing a dramatic monologue of ‘The Woman at the Well’ at New Fellowship Church in Endicott, NY. I would so appreciate your prayers.

Through God’s grace, I have been able to speak so freely of how He has taken something so ugly and has covered it with love. After telling my story (God’s Story), women are now willing to reveal their ‘secret’, maybe for the first time. This is very humbling. At the first two events, I had six women tell me that they too had abortions. Let us pray today for these women, and for all those who are still afraid of trusting God with this secret.

2 Corinthians 1:3-4 (NLT)

All praise to God, the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ. God is our merciful Father and the source of all comfort. 4 He comforts us in all our troubles so that we can comfort others. When they are troubled, we will be able to give them the same comfort God has given us. 

 Father God,
We offer You words of praise. We offer You a thankful heart. We offer You  a surrendered life to Your plans. As believers we have seen, in our own lives, the great things You have done and so we ask that the hearts of the women who have heard, would responded.
We pray that they would not ignore Your voice and would no longer cover their sin of abortion. For we know nothing can be hidden from You! 

Holy Spirit, cover them with Your comforting hands and guide them to a place where they will feel safe to finally allow You to heal their pain. In Jesus name...Amen!



Andrea said...

Praying with you that GOD will do a miraculous work in the hearts of each of these ladies.
Hugs, andrea

April said...

Praying God's Light and Love will shine bright and that these women will come to Him and let Him heal them and bring to them the fullness of Life and joy He desires for them in Him. He came to set us free, He came to offer us life... May the Truth bring down every lie the enemy whispers and may they know that as they come to Him in repentance He gives them forgiveness and removes their sin as far as the East is from the West

Edie said...

I don't know why but this made me tear up today. I love that God is using you my friend! ♥

sonja said...

You are His light Tammy, and He is using you and your story to help so many. Keep going my friend, and we will keep praying!



Beth in NC said...

You are such a blessing Tammy! God is going to continue to use you to set many women free from torment and unforgiveness. God bless you!

Karen said...

Your ministry is such a blessing...I love you, sister....

elaine @ peace for the journey said...

Glad for the freedom that has come to you regarding your abortion. It is for freedom that Christ has set us free! Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus.

Time we all took hold of this truth and started living our freedom!


Warren Baldwin said...

Moving post, Tammy. Thank you.

It's been a while since I've visited here. Your blog looks great.

Terri Tiffany said...

Towanda is practically in my backyard from home.I grew up in Sayre:) SO glad you are speaking about the truth! You have a powerful story:)) Are you from the area?

Anonymous said...

Thank you for sharing your important story. I pray your story, and others like it, reach the people who need it most. They could impact the lives of millions.

Barbara said...

God is using you in a powerful way Tammy. Isn't it amazing how he can use the things we mess up in our lives...He can turn them around to be blessings in the lives of others!! What a blessing you can be to those who need that release from guilt or shame they may not even understand....

Just Be Real/God Whispers In The Wind said...

Tammy appreciate the post and seeing how God is using you. Brings encouragement to me. Thank you.

prashant said...

Glad for the freedom
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