Monday, August 17, 2009

By Their Testimony

Revelation 12:11
And they have defeated him by the blood of the Lamb
and by their testimony.

Our testimony is a declaration of the situations God has brought us through.

I wonder why it's so hard to tell others where we've been. I remember the first time standing in front of a group of women sharing how God healed my marriage. I was baring my soul right down to the last detail, well, not quite. There was one secret I was never going to share. It was the reason I chose to have an abortion, to keep it a secret, because if I had chosen to do the adoption plan there would've been to many questions. I wasn't ready to face the questions, but little did I know that it would be much harder to face the secret.

A couple of years later, God gave me another opportunity to share my testimony but this time my husband was standing at my side. We were involved with the marriage ministry at our church. One of our pastors was having classes on
marriage and asked if we would give our testimony. So, there we both stood as a couple, telling of how God took this hopeless marriage and gave it hope. I had become very comfortable, actually you could say unashamed of how awful our marriage was until we got to the part that had never been uncover...our abortion.

We had discuss early that it was time to expose this secret, it was a part of us and it needed to be told.

Taking a deep breath, I opened my mouth but nothing came out. I could feel a heaviness pressing against my chest and my legs became weak. I thought to myself "Am I going to pass out?" Then I felt my husband's arm starting to tighten around my waist as he took over to tell of the horrible sin we had committed. Within minutes our story had come to an end and God's Story was beginning.

My eyes scanned the room, and what I saw next was so unexpected. Those who were listening were still there. Some were smiling as if to encourage us, and others had tears in their eyes telling us that they,too were mourning our lost. At the end of our testimony, some approached us comforting us with words, while others offered us a hug. From that day on I knew I needed to share my story (God's Story) in order to have victory over the enemy.

Some of you have asked how it went last week in giving my testimony. Well, I didn't lose my breath and my legs were strong as I shared the secret that was once hidden. The room was very quiet and from what I could see ( the lights were in my eyes) no one was moving. This is a subject that doesn't get much of a response outwardly, however I know that God's Word never comes back void.

So, I believe He's working in someone's heart who was there that night listening to my story and thinking...I'm not the only one.

Do you remember when He stirred your heart to uncover the sin that once kept you captive?



Andrea said...

The more I share the easier it gets. I find freedom in sharing. I now know GOD uses me most when I am most vulnerable.
Blessings, andrea

PS: prayer request at arise 2 write

elaine @ peace for the journey said...

"Our testimony is a declaration of the situations God has brought us through."

This first "declaration" gets me, moves me, and requires of me. The situations God has brought me through are a full plate of grace and then some! I would begin there and let the rest unfold as it comes.

Keep speaking the truth of your witness, Tammy. Undoubtedly, God is using your story far beyond your wildest understandings and hope.

You are living a good testimony.


Sarah Dawn said...

Oh sweet one, your testimony makes the evil in this world shutter. Blessings for taking the courageous stand to share.

Delighted to meet you.

Blessings from Costa Rica,
Sarah Dawn

Debra said...


I believe it with you! I know His Word never comes back void too.

Blessings to you, my sweet sister.

Anonymous said...

You are strong and you are doing something that is so great. EVERYONE has a "Secret Sin" some share the same secret as you-some may have other secrets but see your healing and hear your testimony and want to know how to find the peace you seem to have in your life.


Angie said...

There's a song that says "On the other side of "thru"--" and the journey to that "thru" place is sometimes the most difficult place to travel, but I have found an uplifting Arm and Healing Hand that guides us every step of the matter what the secret is.

Everyone has something in their lives that only God knows about...and only God can heal...but when we open our hearts and share that pain and struggle with others (when the timing is God's time) then it can be used for HIS glory....your time was just right. He is and will continue to use you mightly as you step each day in faith!

My heart broke for you---but was encouraged by your strength and mighty faith!

God bless you Tammy girl!

Edie said...

His Word never returns void. I love how God is using you.

Much love to you!!

Terri Tiffany said...

I am so glad God held you up as you shared-- I believe you touched so many hearts when you did. You aren't the only person with a secret to share and who is afraid--I know there are many of us --and it only takes one person to help free others.

LisaShaw said...

You already know my heart as we share. I love you. I stand with you humbled in our LORD's love, forgiveness and mercy and His grace to extend himself to us and through us.

I love you. You are truly the inspiration GOD has placed in my life. I'll never forget that and always be grateful for a hundred reasons...

Karen said...

What a beautiful testimony, Tammy! Courage and obedience to the Lord always bring results...even some we don't immediately are such an inspriation and a blessing!

Christine Mayo said...

Thank you for being a woman of honor, integrity and strength ! Thank you for telling your story so many will come out of hiding and receive their forgiveness and deliverance and get on with living freely. " He whom the Son sets free is free indeed"