Saturday, May 30, 2009

In Memory of…

0530091245 Today, I witness the Lord turn 9 women's sorrow into dancing. I had the honor to be a part of another memorial for “Beyond the Choice” abortion recovery.

I remember that day, the day I acknowledge the emptiness in my heart. He was gone because of my right to “choose”. I would never be able to smell his sweetness after his morning bath or to hold him close so he could hear that familiar sound, my heartbeat. It was hard to admit that I had taken his life, the life that I was to protect.

Looking at the table and seeing all the candles lit in memory of  the children, waves of emotion started to take over. It never gets easier watching the ladies reach for the smaller candle to receive the light from the flame of the larger one (representing Jesus) for their child(ren). Then as they turn to face family and friends, I felt their fear, to admit the secret openly for the first time as the tears well up in their eyes and heart. Some read letters to their little ones, others wrote a poem and one sing a song, a lullaby perhaps, to quiet the pain. As each one of them walked back to their seats, they now had the freedom to love their child(ren) and not the shame that once filled their hearts.

God has placed me in an amazing place despite my rebellion. God reached into my alabaster box removing my will and replaced it with His.


In Memory of the Children

Christian Joshua
Joseph Caleb
Joshua Donna
Joshua Dylan
Grace Daniel
Demetre Abigail


Amy~Saved by Grace said...

wow, Tammy that is so moving. Post-abortion ministry is very much needed across the world and I am thankful to be a part of it. God Bless you my sweet sister in Christ.

Pat said...

Oh my Tammy! I am praying for you and our sisters right now!!!

Bless you sister, stay the course!!

Karen said...

What a touching memorial service that must have been...I know the Lord will richly bless you for this wonderful ministry you have...

Jennifer said...

I can't imagine how moving, emotional and the healing process that began today with this memorial service for these precious children who are sitting in the lap of Jesus Christ.

Thanks for sharing this today!


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LisaShaw said...

My Sweet Sister,

This has tugged at my heart and flushed me with tears. I pray for the peace of God and healing of Christ in all of those women.

Your life is a vessel that has been touched and shaped by the Potters Hand.

I love you.

dynomitegirl said...

Wow, I have watched as my sister struggles with the choice she made 9 years ago. I have seen her pain and cried with her. She had her first baby a year ago but, continues to cry for the one she chose not to have. I wish she could feels God's grace because her heart hurts so much. Something I have never heard anyone else talk about before.

Carmen Gamble said...

Truly a wonderful post. I did some pre and post abortion counseling for a while about 10 years ago.

For those who made the wrong choice, it's so hard to forgive themselves, even while knowing God has forgiven them. Such a deep, deep wound. Such a great cost. Such a loving God! Thanks for sharing!

Sharon said...

I wish that the young women who are contemplating getting an abortion can read your story. It is so sad. I am so thankful that you have the Lord in your life to help you with this. You are such a sweet girl!

God bless you!


LynnSC said...

A wonderful testimony of the grace of God....

Thanks again for sharing your story and your life with us.

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Debra said...

I wish I had the right words...I only have a lump in my throat and the utmost respect. I am so happy for Jesus and what He can do.

Edie said...

This brought tears to my eyes. Thank you Tammy, for what you are doing. May God richly bless you.

Much love!

Faith Imagined said...

This brought tears to my eyes! What an amazing ministry! There is a definite need.

Tea With Tiffany said...

Thank you, Jesus. Children are a gift. And you have received these precious ones into your arms. Thank you...May the heavenly reunion be beyond our wildest dreams. Full of love and affection. No more tears.

Marsha said...

This was so very touching! May God bless this women with peace and healing and a vision to help others who have gone through abortion.

Bless you, Tammy.