Wednesday, April 1, 2009

Yes to God...Chapter 2

Welcome to another week to “Yes to God” bible study with Lelia as our host. I’m looking forward to seeing where God will take all of us as we read “An Untroubled Heart” by Micca Campbell.

Highlighted in blue is taken from the book

At the end of chapter two “the fear factor” there’s eight questions presented to build a strong foundation as we dig deeper into God’s Word. All of these questions really do get you thinker going, but for me, it was the simplest question that stood out.

“What fears do you have today?”

Well, let’s see. I fear the aging process. Without ever leaving upstate NY, I can have my very own tropical moment (menopause). Oh, I mustn’t forget the wrinkles, sagging skin, and one day having to wear those adult diapers (you’ve heard what happens when you cough) and will someday have my hair colored every four weeks instead of six because of the graying. I know what your thinking...“Come on Tammy, that’s so superficial, there’s got to be something more fearful then that.” “You’re right, there is, but I don’t like to talk about.”

When I talk about, or even think about what might happen I become fearful. In the last 16 years, I’ve worked hard to build this foundation. Reading the instructions and being so careful to follow every word. From the outside, everything appears to look good. But when I drop my daughter off at school, that’s when fear shows up. Right before my eyes, I see the enemy luring our youth into the world of pleasure. Every week, I meet with young ladies over at the Crisis Pregnancy Center and see the choices they are making. I see how television, magazines and music glamorize sex before marriage. The fear that my daughter will walk down the same road I did…scares me.

I need to stop right here and be honest. I’ve been sitting at my computer for the last hour typing and deleting. Typing and deleting because I’m afraid that I don’t have something clever or profound to say. English class never was one of my a favorite subject. The fear of being judged on my writing ability scares me. Since I’ve started writing on my blog, I've been blessed with new friends, who love the Lord like I do. During my weekly visit to all of your blogs, I’m blown a way as I read your thoughts. Your words flow so beautifully together.

I’m not sure why I’m telling you this but I do feel a lot better now.

I love all of you for taking the time to visit and when I make my rounds, know that I receive wisdom, knowledge and many blessings from reading your thoughts.



Barb said...

Thank you for coming by. I know that story has touched many. How wonderful you had a Mom like that.

I love what you wrote today, and no time for further reading, but I know is is wonderful.

I am not a writer either, but when you are honest, and share what is on your heart, people will enjoy it and be blessed.

Keep up the God work! =0)

Barbara Jean

LisaShaw said...

Precious friend, this message is so transparent and I absolutely love that about you. We all have fears. A few of yours are a few of mine (the adult diapers and definitely the concerns for my last daugther at home who is entering 11th grade). She's a sweet young lady who loves the Lord and has made us so proud but I fear for her because I see what's in the world and I see the struggles her older sister, our adult daughter has had because she didn't follow our teaching. It breaks my heart!!!

Ok, I'm going on and on and didn't mean for this to be a book but let me say this, PLEASE don't worry about your writing/english,etc. It's awesome! As I write this to you I confess I've had this same thought a time a two about myself but I remember that it's really not about that. It's about the message. The heart in which you speak and the truth in which you speak it. That's all that matters.

I learn/glean so much from you and I treasurer your heart for Christ. Love you.

Tea With Tiffany said...

I understand all of this all too well. I fear aging too. Like you, I've walked the road of the world when I was younger and have the scars to show it. I don't want that for my son or daughter. I get angry about the world and its lure. So I kick and scream and vent and eventually pray.

Your words are our reward. We aren't judging, we are receiving you with open arms.

Connected by HIS heart,


Lori said...

Tammy my sister, your words blow me away as they reveal your thoughts! You're a blessing to me!

Billy Coffey said...

Good writing has a lot more to do with what you feel than how well you can put nouns and verbs together. A lot of our fears are large shadows cast by tiny things. I think that's true. And if it is, your writing ability is just one of those shadows, because I think you're great.

Carol said...


It seems we share the same fears. Aging, I'm with you on that, I try to remember that it's what on the outside, but boy the world around tells us the opposite.

My daughter I fear for her, constantly in prayer for her, and her friends.

Writting, girlfriend, I love your writing you share your heart, but I understand where you are coming form. I read things and am totally blown away your blog included. Your openess and your story has blessed me in ways I can't express. As well as your loving support and comments you leave on my blog.

Thanks for sharing the story of Lilly too.


Karen said...

Dear Tammy...we all share your fears. I finally parted ways with Miss Clairol last fall and have decided I enjoy the streaks of gray that are joining all my darker ones.

As a grandparent, it is hard not to worry about this present generation and all that is thrown at them from every side. We just have to trust the Word that promises if we raise our children with the knowledge of the Lord and His ways, that even if they leave for a season, when they are old they will not depart from it.

And me...your words are flowing just fine...straight from your heart...and out your fingers onto the keyboard. You are a blessing to all who visit!

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