Monday, March 30, 2009

In Memory of Lilly

There are things in my life I love to remember. Like, when my dad would kiss me good-night before he went to bed or my mom’s sweet smile and tender words of encouragement. Remembering can bring a smile to your face or it can bring tears to your eyes. Looking back often takes you to the times when we have seen God's faithfulness.

On March 27, 2009 “Beyond the Choice” abortion recovery program held a memorial service. We offer this service to give women who have gone through the program the opportunity to openly acknowledge and grieve their children.

As I prepared for this special event, it took me back to the day I had finally accepted my abortion as my child. Stepping back and as I gazed at the table, it reminded me of the day that he was called by his name, a day he became a person to the world. There in the center stood a large white candle, symbolizing Jesus Christ, and placed around it were smaller candles representing the children lost to abortion. Off to the right stood a tall glass vase were I had placed three long-stemmed red roses in memory of the children and as a reminder of God’s forgiveness through the blood of Jesus.

Soon everyone had arrived. They took their seats and the room filled with the sound of small talk. I believe it was to hide the feelings that would soon surface. I waited a few minutes to let everyone feel at ease before I walked over to light the candle in the center of the table. The room became silent. We opened in prayer. I thanked them for coming every week to the Bible study and for pressing through the hard stuff but most of all, for trusting God. I ended with this verse:



Psalm 34:5-6,8 (NLT)
5Those who look to him for help will be radiant with
joy; no shadow of shame will darken their
faces. 6In my desperation I prayed, and the Lord
listened; he saved me from all my
troubles.

8 Taste and see that the Lord is
good. Oh, the joys of those who take refuge
in him!

Now it was time for each of us who had lost a child through abortion to light a small candle off the larger one. I went first. As I picked up the candle, my emotions came to the surface and I began to wonder: what kind of person would my child have been today? What might his voice have sounded like as he spoke my name or told me that he loved me? The feeling was bittersweet as I whispered his name…Christian Daniel. I then walked over to my chair, sat down, and wiped the tears that were flowing from my eyes.

A few moments later a young woman, who never got to hold her child because of her “right to choose", walked over to the table. She reached down, picked up a small candle, and lit it in memory of her daughter…Lilly. After a few moments of silence, she read Ecclesiastes 3:1-8 telling us that these words gave her comfort after her abortion. Her eyes began to tear up as she spoke about how much this study had helped her.
She thanked me for introducing her to Jesus and she said “You’ll never know how much you helped me.” Then her friend, who had called the abortion clinic to make the appointment, went over to the table and lit a candle for Lilly, too. She said that she will always be grateful for the truth that was revealed to her and the forgiveness through Jesus Christ that she had received.

On that day I saw God bless two young ladies, who had been bound by the lies of Satan, and set them free in an instant by sharing their secret. I watched the tears of sorrow and shame become tears of joy. They were set free!

As we said our good-byes and they walked away, I knew they had... tasted the Lord and that He is good.


Tammy

11 comments:

Lori said...

Praise the Lord they were set free! What a healing that takes place in that Bible Study! There have been many woman, that despite crisis pregnancy counseling, have gone ahead with their abortion plan. If only PAS could be understood, but the crisis (or should I say, Satan) blind them.

Blessings to you Tammy!

Laura said...

So powerful. What beautiful work you are doing--in others as well as yourself.

Chatty Kelly said...

I'm so sad for everyone's loss, but so happy for the healing power of Jesus! Amen!

Karen said...

What a precious service and time of ministering to each other! God Bless You!

Pam said...

How beautiful, and one day I will hold that same ceremony for my 3 children. I am slowly getting there. Thank you for this story, and for all you are doing in this area. I know those ladies appreciated you, and the love you had for Jesus.

TRUTHSHARER said...

I am amazed at the HEALING GRACE that God has for each person - He truly does make EVERYTHING beautiful in its time!

Speak on, dear sister, and pray on!

Looking UPward and Choosing JOY,
Stephanie
[In Flight]

Billy Coffey said...

What a powerful and honest post. I'm humbled by your words and thankful that you've found God's sweet grace.

Edie said...

What a wonderful memorial Tammy. God uses all things for the good of them that love Him.

I wanted to thank you for praying for me too. It really means a lot to me. I'm so glad we're sisters in Christ. :)

Cricket said...

Everything, everyone has a purpose...maybe this was little Lilly's purpose. Through the choice made, Lilly returned back to the Father in Heaven, she did not have to see any of the hard earthly things, but in this choice...Lilly brought her mother to the Lord.

Great job...you most definately have a testimony to give. Thank you for sharing it as it continues to grow.

Tessa

Julie Gillies said...

Hi Tammy,

I love, love, love when God takes what the enemy meant for our harm, and He uses it for our good.

Praise God for your testimony, for using you to touch others in a powerful way!

JMBMOMMY said...

I have been blessed by your testimony. BTW, I ordered that book "Tilly", read it at the beach a couple of weeks ago---and passed it on to several friends that I felt like would really be blessed by it.