Monday, March 15, 2010

Changing One for Many

If you’re visiting for the first time and you don’t know my story (God’s Story), you may want to check it on the left-hand side bar under “My Secret Sin.” I was one of those human beings who needed a heart change. If you have had an abortion, I want you to know you will find no condemnation here, but you will find Truth wrapped in grace and mercy. God has brought you here because He doesn’t want you to hurt and feel ashamed anymore, but what He does want from you is to trust Him with your pain. Will you do that? I hope so. If you need to talk or need prayer, click on ‘profile’ for email.

She spoke with no shame. Her voice was calm as she made this confession… “I’ve had an abortion, and not one but four. I am no longer ashamed. Jesus Christ changed my life.” She continued with her testimony and by the end of my first abortion recovery class, I knew I wanted what she had!
That was over 13 years ago when those words first penetrated my heart. Since then, God has called me to testify of His forgiveness and grace to those who are running from the Mercy seat because of their abortion(s).

Revelation 12:11 (NIV) They overcame him by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of their testimony;

This one sin was going to the grave with me. This was one act that when discussed in a group setting you would hear “I could never have an abortion, I would never do that.”

 I remember the first time I spoke about my abortion publicly. My husband and I were giving our testimony of our restored marriage in front of about 50 couples at church. I knew that we needed to uncover this part of our lives because our abortion was done out of anger, unforgiveness and bitterness towards each other. As I started to say that we had had an abortion, my legs became weak. I couldn’t breathe and tears that were welling up blurred my vision. I was terrified…what were they going to think? It was then that my husband placed his hand on my back and finished my sentence.

Well, I’ve come a long way since that day … the day the enemy tried to keep our secret sin a secret. Now I proclaim God’s forgiveness toward my abortion with no shame and a calm voice.

In upcoming months, I have the opportunity to share my story (God’s Story). Along with my testimony, I will be performing a dramatic monologue presentation of the ‘Woman at the Well’ at several churches and a crisis pregnancy center. Would you please join me in prayer for the many women in attendance, that they will hear and receive God’s message through me as His vessel.

Isaiah 55:10-11 (NLT) The rain and snow come down from the heavens
      and stay on the ground to water the earth.
   They cause the grain to grow,
      producing seed for the farmer
      and bread for the hungry.
 11 It is the same with my word.
      I send it out, and it always produces fruit.
   It will accomplish all I want it to,
      and it will prosper everywhere I send it.

Abba Father,
We give you thanks,oh Lord, with all of our hearts. Your love towards us, we can't even begin to measure it. 
Lord, we pray for the women that are carrying around the heavy burden of their abortion. Father, we ask for Your Mighty hand to gently reach down and touch them.

We ask for their ears to hear Your words and that they would receive it as a love letter. Your Word has the power to change one's heart. You tell us that Your Word will not come back void and will accomplish what You desire.

We have all fallen short and there is nothing that can be hidden from You, may this truth be revealed. 

So, we ask that You would bring those that need to be at the events and for the enemy's mouth to be silenced! We pray for each woman who has been running from You, that she will  turn and run to You. We pray she will to take her abortion to the foot of the Cross, forsake it and exchange it for Your forgiveness. We ask this in Your son's name, Jesus Christ...Amen!



Emily said...

Praying with you, Tammy. Please keep us posted on the events - we love to see how God works through you!

LisaShaw said...

I am praying for you Tammy. I'm so thankful of all the ways God is using your life and you know He's used you to touch mine. I'm sure the ministering you are doing upcoming will result in lives being changed through the power of the Holy Spirit who is at work in and through you.

I love you.

P.S. I tried putting your prolife button on my blog but the "codes" show along with the button.

RCUBEs said...

It's hard to give our testimony because we know how judgmental people can be. I think we become afraid to reveal things because of the possible pain of rejection or shame that we have to endure. But the truth is that, none of us is righteous. Not even ONE. Only One is. And I'm glad that He always accepts us for who we are, with all of our mistakes and just loves us for who we are. And it is Him Who will sustain us with His love and grace to overcome and turn that mistakes into good.
There are so many confused young pregnant women out there and I'm glad for people like you who minister to them. And to those who already made that awful decision, may they come to know God's love and forgiveness. Through your ministry. And those of others doing these.
May the Lord continue to guide you, protect you and give you the strength that you need. Take care sister Tammy and God bless.

sten said...

I look forward to your words and prayers every week. Thank you for all you do and allowing God to work through you. My life has been greatly enriched for knowing you.


April said...

Yes! May the enemy be bound & the prodigals run to the open & loving arms of the Father... Run to the Mercy Seat ... And find amazing grace, forgiveness, redemtion, freedom, unfailing love & victory in Jesus! Praying for the fullness of God's love & grace to be poured out upon these women (& men) & for the to open up all of themselves to receive and embrace it. Amen.

Cheryl Barker said...

Still praying with you, Tammy. Keep us posted on the dates of your events so we can pray as you go...

debrah said...

Praying with you Tammy & I include in those prayers people such as myself who have foot in mouth disease...once years ago during a bible study I spoke something about abortion (don't remember what I said) a woman from the study offered to drive me home that evening...once we were in her car she said that she had an I apologized for the words I had spoken earlier she said don't apologize but pray that she will have the strength to share with others...then once again a few years ago I opened my big mouth at a bible study...I was new to the church & several weeks ago at this study they were quiet while someone in the study seemed to be stating that abortion was okay...well it took me several weeks to put the question to them...on where does the church stand on abortion...this turned into a lot of hurt feelings because the woman who made the statements weeks ago was hurting from the fact that her daughter just had an abortion...I pray for people such as I that our hearts will be right and we are sensitive to the Holy Spirit's timing and the sensitive to others who may be quietly in pain because of abortion.

Anonymous said...

I LOVE, LOVE that you share your testimony and that you took your "sin" and made it not your weakness but your ministry.

I Love to see the Love for God you have and that you share God's love and mercy to other's that feel all hope is gone.

I pray that God uses you in great and mighty ways and that He goes before you and prepares the way for you.

Your testimony has touched my heart in ways I never would have imagined.

Thank you for sharing and for spreading God's love

Karen said...

Praying, Tammy...

I would love to see a video of the "Woman at the Well" monologue...loved your ending prayer...

Tea With Tiffany said...

What a gift you will be in the days, weeks and months to come. Go where He sends you and shine His light. Thankful, thankful, thankful for your heart for those hurting from abortions. Love seeing what God continues to do in and through you.

Hugs and love,


April said...

Hi! It is me again =) just wanted to share this news article I just read -

Check it out.

Patrina said...

Awesome opportunity, Tammy.
A testimony in the hands of God! His plans are perfect....God will hold you up this time, you can count on that~

Patrina <")>><
His watchman on the wall

prashant said...

I'm so thankful of all the ways God is using your life and you know He's used you to touch mine. I'm sure the ministering you are doing upcoming will result in lives being changed through the power of the Holy Spirit who is at work in and through you.
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