Monday, February 8, 2010

Changing One Heart for Many


If you’re visiting for the first time and you don’t know my story (God’s Story), you may want to check it on the left-hand side bar under “My Secret Sin.” I was one of those human beings who needed a heart change. If you have had an abortion, I want you to know you will find no condemnation here, but you will find Truth wrapped in grace and mercy. God has brought you here because He doesn’t want you to hurt and feel ashamed anymore, but what He does want from you is to trust Him with your pain. Will you do that? I hope so. If you need to talk or need prayer, click on ‘profile’ for email.

Whether I speak to an audience of many or just one, sharing that over 20 years ago I decided to have an abortion, I can hear sounds of emotion in the air. Here’s my thought during that moment, Are you pro-abortion (pro-choice) or pro-life?  It may surprise you that I called myself a Christian and believed abortion should be legal, never thinking in a million years that I would go down that road.

Being a Christian and pro-choice is not as uncommon as you might think. I was actually quite surprised when I did a Google search. I found words that compared an unplanned pregnancy to a mistake or a punishment. I read several articles that even stated that until the baby takes its first breath outside of the womb it’s not considered a person to those who are pro- abortion (pro-choice).

I must be honest here; I was pro-abortion (pro-choice) for many years after my abortion. Are you surprised? I went to church every Sunday and I read my Bible.  I knew God had forgiven me, yet I struggled to love my daughter who was born 4 years after the abortion.  Numerous times I would cry out to God, asking Him why I felt this way. Then one day as I was preparing my testimony, God led me to Psalm 127:3.  He showed me that my pregnancy wasn’t a mistake or a punishment, but it was a child. I served Him with my words. I worshiped Him with song. But I had not completely humble myself. For the first time I saw my abortion as my child, a life that God created.

From the White House to the churches, many still believe that a unplanned pregnancy is a mistake or a punishment. Many of us have ways of justifying our actions or not fully submitting to God’s truth…I know I did.

Psalm 25:9 He leads the humble in doing right,
      teaching them his way.

Father God,
As believers in Christ, we acknowledge that You are the Creator and we are Your creation.  Search us, oh Lord, and show us the areas that we still hold on to that doesn't  glorify Your name.  Stir our hearts to be willing to set aside our ways,our thoughts and humbly lay them before You.
Forgive us for the times that we didn't trust You in situations that we choose to face alone.
We pray, Father God, that our president and this nation would start to hear the cries of all the innocent blood that is taken because of abortion. May they be reminded, as they look upon the faces of their loved ones, that life isn't a choice but a gift from God.
Convict the hearts that stand against You, so they will humble themselves and learn Your ways. In the Mighty Name of Jesus...Amen! 



sonja said...

I wholeheartedly join with you in this prayer this morning Tammy!

Such good words you have so honestly shared here and I pray that the right ones will see this page and find new hope and a change of heart.



April said...

Praying for hearts to be softened, eyes & ears to be open to hear the truth...Praying for lives to be changed and for lives to be saved.

Melinda said...

Amen, and amen, and AMEN.

sharon said...

Tammy, what a touching post and prayer. I can certainly see why God placed you on Melinda's heart to lead this prayer team. Thank you for being so open with your life and for allowing God to use your heartache to help others. May the Father richly bless you and give you wisdom as you so lovingly strive to lead us in this great battle for life!!

Praying in Texas,

Andrea said...

Praying with you,

elaine @ peace for the journey said...

Not a mistake or a punishment, but a child.

Well said; well lived.

Keep to it.


Jennifer said...

I was much like you and was pro-choice (pro-abortion) however, God has opened my eyes and my heart.

THank you for your honesty!!!


quietspirit said...

I was misled by the term,'pro-choice' until God led me to read some literature.

Barbara said...

I have to admit that I have never been pro-choice.....the only area where I ever had a problem with it was when the mother's life is in danger if she continues with the pregnancy. I praise God I have never been in that place to make that decision. But it seems it many cases abortion is simply used as a birth control for women who did not take responsibility for their actions (precautions if they were going to be promiscuous) However I know there must be many other reasons.....but whatever the reasons God's Word is pro-life!

RCUBEs said...

Prayed with you and for you. May the Lord cover you with His Holy Blood and protect you with His mighty angels as you share this important ministry. Blessings to you.

Tracy said...

Thanks for sharing this beautiful prayer. I'm still praying with you!

debrah said...

Praying in agreement with your prayer.

Cheryl Barker said...

Praying with you, Tammy...

Edie said...

Thank you for leading us in prayer Tammy. I offer up my Amen with all of these ladies.

Have a great week!

Deborah Ann said...

Tammy, thank you for being so real, and so honest. You will do much for God's kingdom with your testimony!

LisaShaw said...

Praise the LORD dear sister! Standing with you in prayer. I love you and your heart.

sarah said...

your voice is strong and so important. I never knew I could speak...or tell the things that happened to me but I have learned we must tell...we must speak those things on our heart b/c we can make a difference. You're making a difference.

Deborah Ann said...

Got sumpin' for you at my blog!


Tammy -
Thank you for wearing your heart on your sleeve because Christ wore His Heart on the Cross for us! I am in awe [as I have said long ago the first time I visited your blog]
how amazed I am at the work of RESTORATION that God is doing among women who have had abortions. You are being obedient to the call and though you cannot 'undo' what was done - you can - and are - "paying it forward" to help those who are facing the same choices before them - to choose life because it is SACRED in the eyes of God who created it!

Thank you also for joining The Prayer Walk blog of Shepherd's Walk. I am working with Edie as I type getting a new link button up to come there for prayer. I invite those who come to NJ to come and pray here for real - but if you can't - you can pray with us as we pray for others = especially the unborn which also have a link on the SW blog!

May God continue to do a miracle work in your life!

{{Hugs}} Stephanie
JESUS ONLY in 2010

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